March 22, 2007

 

someone called my name, whispered it loudly. i sat up and looked at the clock 2:12 a.m. dazed with sleep, i looked around for the source and then i remembered…i’m alone.

ok, Lord. I’ll pray…and so it has been this morning. i know some of the names that are attached to these requests, some i don’t-but i was compelled to pray specifically. maybe it’s for you.

a job. a broken marriage. to mend a relationship. courage. a mate. a broken heart. harsh words spoken. money urgently needed. someone is lonely, pretending not to be. someone is discouraged. be a better parent. a new job. cancer. school. transportation. living a lie. stronger witness. courage. gentleness. lay down their pride and ask for help. sickness. broken relationship. abuse. an affair. the move. to have a baby. to get married. to get out of debt. to be accepted. to be held. to be loved. to be forgiven. to have hope. direction. serious about their relationship with God. to be a nicer person. healing. health. to live for something bigger. to find God’s plan. that they get this house. another job request and another and another and so on. successful surgery. that they say the right thing. that they are more compassionate. be a better boss. be nicer to their children. stop yelling. be a better wife. transform their ministry. motivation. exams. income tax. safe travel. keep loved one safe. the call would come. a kidney. recovery. rehabilitation. court date. communication. forgiveness, again. clarity of purpose. to escape mediocrity. to dream again! to become hot as fire. to LIVE for Dustin and everyone else who can’t.

and for myself…that in the end, having worked through life’s minutia, i would have lived without regret. having been brave enough to embrace the plan God wrote for my life at the beginning of all time. regardless of where it leads. for richer or for poorer. to live for something bigger than self, and Own it. with confidence. and Love. serving others and in doing so, serve God. and that when rain does fall on the just and the unjust, i will still sing off-key while stomping and splashing joyfully through the puddles. because no matter what, in the end…i already know, We Win.